Ok...
I just need to write something.
I have a great life... but i'm feeling sad.
I think i have a dream and that dream is impossible.
And shouldn't been so impossible like that if I wasn't be such ***hole lol
Also I deeny that even for God about my feelings, but God knows everything...
Why the hell i'm so dump? (don't anwser)

Ok... now i'll tell what's happening.
That's sounds really emotional, and that's not my way to be but nevermind...
I "think" i love a person and the hell I allready kicked out this person so much because I don't know her...
And now i'm certain she's in love with another person who don't even care for her.

F**K...
She don't even want to see me no more...(i think)
She treats me now like indiferent person of her life...(by msn, email or mobile messages)
And now everytime i talk with her I bleed as hell...
I thought I would never felt that... becase when I used to date a girl and she break with me it's just just 2 or 3 mouths to get myself up and go on but this one is diferent...
It's been more than a year that I even DREAM with her when i'm sleeping.

Yeah... the hell i know i was wrong... but I allready said her I'm sry and don't work.
I know she likes another person by now and only think about him and the problem is that i can't do nothing...
Why I tell that? I don't know anymore what to do... I allready did everthing to make her look at me again but don't work.(And I don't her about my feelings, if i do that she'll kick me a LOT)
She's blinded by love and that's brokes my heart...

And by the way..she's the last person in the world that I thought i would love...
But this f**king feelings we don't choise...it's simple happened...
I'm really sorry if you read all this, just need to say some words...

Awesome, 3 years , 3 girls - 3 times broken hearted...
I'll kill myself lol (joke)

Another great things over my life:
I argue really bad with one of my best friends last week and since that we don't talk anymore and she can read this... fantastic...
My brother had a car accident today, luckly he don't have any injuries and it wasn't his falt.(with my dad's car)
And I had a great day with my friends in a farn, with pool, a sauna and a barbecue (and a very great sun)
By the way finnaly I got time to write something here...

This music discribe exactely how i'm feeling...
You can listen here > [link]
(From youtube safe link xD)

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My Curse
Killswitch Engage

I watched you walk away
Helpless, with nothing to say
I strain my eyes
Hoping to see you again

This is my curse (the longing)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the yearning)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?
Will you be there?

Your silence haunts me
But still I hunger for you

This is my curse (the wanting)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the needing)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?

Still I want
And still I ache
But still I wait
To see you again

Dying, inside, these walls
Dying, inside, these walls

And I see your face in these tears, In these tears
And I see your face...

There is love
There is love
There is love
There is love
There is love
There is love
There is love
There is love
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Well
Hope all of you have a very good week.
See You!